Full Body Mammogram

That's how I feel today. Like my whole body is being crushed in a mammography grid while someone scans parts unknown.

I cannot describe what I feel right now or how it is affecting me. I have learned throughout the last 3 years...that those who love us, love us, and those who don't, probably never did...and probably never will. I have spent most of my life trying to please everyone around me. And most everyone loved that I did. But, when I began to live my life for me...whoa, not many people liked that twist.

I also learned to say "no". Alot of people had never heard me utter that word very much, and they were very surprised to here it for the first few times. I love people, especially my friends, but some people will take advantage if you let them. And there is the answer, if you let them. I can't blame anyone for my choices. And, I do not care to be blamed for anyone else's choices. I am doing just fine with my own choices as bad as some of them may have been.

I have revealed alot about my personal life over the last couple of years, and I can honestly say that I am glad that I did. I regret that I did not do it sooner. I have had a big weight on my shoulders since I was a little girl, and I finally decided that I did not care who knew about my life. I did not choose my life, my life chose me. All I want to do is love my friends and family unconditionally. Is it too much to ask that they might do the same for me? I don't think so.

Life is too short to squabble over anything. We are all human. We are all sinners. All we need to do is quit judging one another and love each other the way we would like to be loved. Hold onto God, and He will hold onto you.

I wish you peace and unconditional love in your lives.

Sisters